Hoax surprised me by going into labour four days early (Hmmm thermometer obv not been reading well)! I had just got back from my morning horse ride and collecting Ethan from Nursery. I tried to pop Ethan down for a nap and went to cuddle Hoax onthe sofa, Miss Merlie was panting and groaning- my god she was in labour and I knew pups were imminent!
Gathering myself (and all the gadgets etc) together I sat with her by the whelping box and Ethan (deciding he didnt want to nap) left on the sofa with sweeties and a movie. Calling Nic I hoped he would get home in time that I could focus on Hoax... Twas not to be and juggling changing out of riding clothes, sorting mad child and mad dogs, Hoax' first puppy arrived just over an hour after we had got home at 2.40pm, Nic got back to take over Ethan and I relaxed. First pup, dark little B&W bitch- pretty pretty! 3.10pm next pup arrives, flashy Reef- like B&W bitch- what was going on! All dogs last time... all bitches now! 3.30pm next pup is here- MERLE! little classically marked blue merle bitch- lovely. Then a loooong break, Hoax contractions werent as strong as before, in both litters she had never had more than about 35 mins gap between pups... an hour later and pup four appears... I had a feeling then something wasnt right, he wasnt pushing for anything after shed helped him out... He wasnt looking for her or trying to seek milk. I kept rubbing him trying to get him to react and realised his breathing sounded laboured. I started noticing things... firstly his mouth, not right, I realised he had a terrible cleft palate, then his tail wasnt developed properly... and he just didnt look right. I knew there was no hope for my little boy. I called the vets and took him straight over. The vet confirmed what I suspected and that the cleft was so bad there was no chance, along with the other issues we knew there was no choice.
I brought my little man home and he is buried at here, he will always be with us, where he was born and where he will alwys rest x
The normal celebratory texts and calls went on hold until I felt I could rejoice in what we have rather than what we lost.
It ws later when I started to weigh and photograph pups that the little frisson returned- what a wonderful, relaxed mum Hoax is, three STUNNING healthy girls. My Hoax is well, the babies are well- be happy with what 'is' rather than what was.
Today I have to respect life and death and celebrate and love what is here, right now x
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So sad about little boy...may he rest well...and he will be there above all perky to greet you one day. Gd bless him
Hoaxy sure delivered on the girls, I truly believe she has a mystical understanding of what i asked..just as she delivered for Yvette last time. Love her! She is a very special girl!!!
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